The voices in his head........

That is what his last note said, he couldn't take the voices in his head anymore and he had to rest.

So much pain for a 22 year old to go through. So much pain that everyone else that cared for him has to now go through. A part of me wishes he had reached out for help or that someone would of caught on to his "red flags" and told him that everything was going to be okay. Now a child will grow up not knowing his father, a mother and father will have to continue on without their son, a sibling will have to live life without his brother.

Death is never easy to understand or to comprehend as is but when someone does so on purpose, it makes grieving for him ten times worse. The 'why's' and 'how come's' will never be answered. All that's left is the note of someone who was in pain.
Rest in peace Justin, we love you and will miss you terribly.

What women will do to save their own ass....

Well work is getting a little out of hand. I have worked at my job for almost two years and have just now encountered the nastiness and vindictiveness that women are capable of. Why can't women be like men and just go to work, talk about random shit and go home? Why must women be in a constant competition with each other? This is the first job I have worked that contains all women. It's to the point where I do not want to have any part of it anymore. Everything was great until this one attention seeking woman got hired. I knew from the first time I saw her that she would be trouble. If only my instincts had told just how much trouble she was going to be! She gossips (I mean we are all women we gossip I get it) to the point that she will LIE to save her own ass. Everyone knows that she is this way but yet she keeps spouting off to me how everyone else is the problem. Since I am a Psych major I am going to go ahead and formally diagnose her as being a Narcissist. She lacks self control in the ability to keep to her self with certain issues, believes she does not ever do any wrong, everyone else is at fault and this idea that she is better than everyone perceives her to be. This condition conflicts with work and family life and can have a huge impact on ones future. So this is what I have been dealing with at work and don't get me wrong, not all women are like this but every once in a blue moon, one comes along and wreaks havoc in the work place. People beware.

Working with Women

Working with women lately has become very chanelling. I work with a girl that can't keep her mouth shut to save her life. She is what I like to call a 'shit stirrer'. She seriously goes out of her way to get people mad at each other. Oh and did I mention? She's twenty-nine acting like seventeen year old. I seriously have no time nor do I want to for her shit. Why in the hell do women gossip anyways? It's so stupid.
On another note I want to add that I think the new AZ law that is so desperately trying to take effect is the most ridiculous law I have ever seen. It IS going to create more problems than solve I can gaurantee you that!
Night everyone!
Danielle

Life is hard to do

Well I am not feeling very proud of myself this weekend. I went to a barbecue to have a play date with a mom that I barely know and her kids. My husband came and her husband was there as well. Well it started out great. Then she pops out the wine. I am thinking cool I can have a couple of glasses and just relax. My husband was driving so it was all good. Well about 10 pm I realize we had been there for a really long time then it hit almost midnight. I am thinking okay it's time to go. Well this mom proceeded to get totally wasted in front of my kids, and hers. She claims that she doesn't do that often. But who does that as a first impression?? I feel like I totally ruined my kids.... well my daughter anyways. My son was too busy paying with hers. The kids were monitored just fine but I guess I wasn't paying attention to how much she was actually drinking. Anyways it wasn't one of my best mommy moments but I can tell you now I will not be drinking for a very long time and I will not put my children in that situation every again. God I feel better!
D

Saturday

Well this is my way of doing something OTHER than my homework. I can't stand history and I am needing to really work hard at it. My poor husband is sick and went to bed at 645 tonight. Have I mentioned I can not stand his stupid dad? He is a complete ass and I do not care if anyone knows that I hate him. Yes I hate him and I know that is a very strong word but I use it as such in this case. He has never been nice to anyone and takes advantage of everyone he meets. He physically disgust me to the point that I can not even look at him EVER! I do not want him around my kids but my husband thinks he deserves a million chances before he too says he can not stand him. There is not enough blog to describe the horrible things he has done to me and my kids. Ugh I hate him.........

School and driving

Well you are probably wondering what the two have to do with each other. The answer is nothing. I had my stats test today and just like before every stats test ten or more people want the Professor to go over what we have learned in the last 3 weeks AGAIN! What the hell were these people doing during the 3 weeks while he was teaching? God knows but dammit I am tired of going to class and having people that never show up or pay attention ask all of their dam question before he hands out the test. It's not hard at all yet the same people continue to make it harder than it really is. Okay so I have to drive about 20 miles to school everyday. I take 380, a highway in north Texas. The people on that road seem to think that the speed limit is over 80. On my way home I almost witness 2 what could of been very bad wrecks due to idiots tailgating and changing lanes. Why do people drive like this??? Oh and the one lady that almost caused a 3 car wreck was in a dam hurry to get to Kwik Car Oil Change. This was at 145 pm and I SERIOUSLY doubt that they were going to be closing any time soon. So please people pay attention in class and on the road and take your time! You might kill someone if you don't.
Danielle

Well he's off.........

Well my husband just went off to bed, without me. It's weird because he never does that. I guess he is tired. I really need to finish my homework but I am not in the mood. Ugh I just want to be done with school..........